Before leaving the porn industry for good and embracing Jesus Christ as her savior, Crissy Outlaw starred in over 50 adult films.
Growing up Outlaw fell into a series of bad relationships. “I never felt good enough for the men I dated,” she confessed. “I didn’t feel beautiful,” I said, ‘One day I’m going to be one of the girls you watch on screen.'”
Crissy was earning over $15,000 a month during the peak of her adult film career. Outlaw says that “unlimited amounts of money,” were available to her. But she was empty on the inside. Eventually, she realized only God could fill the void in her life.
“I fell to the ground and I said ‘God, if you’re real, I need you to tell me. I need a sign because everything I know about love isn’t right. And I need to feel you in my life because I haven’t felt you since I was 11 years old’ and I stayed on the floor,” she said.
Just the next day, something remarkable happened. Outlaw and her boyfriend headed to a film set in Albuquerque, New Mexico. A topless photo of a crew member’s wife was being passed around, but one particular man named Chris refused to look at it.
Outlaw talked to him and told him she was a porn star. The man looked at her and asked her a simple question that shook her to her very soul, “Do you know Jesus?”
The Holy Spirit convicted her right then and there. “I started crying when he asked me if I wanted to rededicate my life,” she recalled. “I said yes. [After that], I didn’t do any more shoots and stopped accepting any income from pornography.” Outlaw began attending a local church, and there, she met her future husband, Lawton Outlaw, who was a youth pastor at the time.
Now, the couple travels around the country sharing their testimony. “I made tons of mistakes but entering porn was one of the biggest ones,” she said. “This mistake is out there forever but I’ve come to peace with myself and who God has made me to be.”
